Let's All Just Grab a Spoon of Speculoos

This past week we've reached our boiling point. We've gotten to our limits. After 81 days being in Strasbourg with the same people, we're all a bit tired of it. Tensions were high this week in the Chateau and an explosion was inevitable.

And I'm ready to bolt.

When all of the Chateau Crises came about, my first thought was "when can I get out? Can I get a hotel in Strasbourg?"

Unfortunately, this is not the best solution. This sort of thing always happens. We get tired of the same game over and over again and we take it out on each other and never think that we're the problem.

I reached my wits end 3 weeks ago. Apparently, my tolerance is much less than most. I wasn't having it during my week, I let it all out, but then I got over it. And really, all of my cares and worries. So, when I realized that this was the week that everyone was going to hate everything I wanted to bolt and not get stuck in the middle of it all. (Of course, this is myself thinking, "hmm this has nothing to do with me, I don't need to be confronted about anything"). - And secret between you and me, I honestly think things have been blown way out of proportion.

But there we were, confrontation and I in the same room. When I regularly try to avoid, this time there was no way out, and when it comes at me I can't help but try to reason. This never works out, because you can't reason with collisions. Rather, I got sucked in and really, everyone did. It was everyones problem and everyones fault. With only one solution - fix it or else.

It didn't feel productive, no one felt accomplished. And honestly, it just felt like an ambush where we can do nothing right. Fine, there are things that needed to be addressed, sure, whatever. I guess this addressed issues would never be taken well, no matter how important they were; we (or just I) would feel like it's all our fault. Not to take into account that sometimes with 1000 people sharing things, shit happens and there's no reason to let it overwhelm you.

Maybe that's my problem, maybe not, I just want to ignore the problem when it doesn't seem worth stressing over. My philosophy...we all just need to eat more Speculoos.