Back to Reality, Op there goes gravity

Living at the Chateau is nothing but a fairytale, a dream come true. I'm here in France, studying abroad, meeting new people, shopping at foreign stores, and having a good time. I am finally here doing what I always wanted to do since my freshman year of high school. I remember my school, Glenelg Country School, had exchange students come all of the time for the year. I would make great friends from all of the world and dream about what it felt like to live somewhere else other than home. I guess you could say that WVU gave me this same feeling but it was slightly different. At WVU, there was a different sense of community, which I enjoyed too. It is something to be a Mountaineer, representing WVU in another country other than the US. Living here is like a 4 month long vacation. But as the saying says, all good things must come to an end. 

This week our professor from the International Studies department came to Strasbourg for a visit. He took us out for dinner and drinks twice. I enjoyed his company. It was great to see another American face. It gave me another sense of home. We discussed classes, Strasbourg, trips, and of course scheduling. That stressful time of the year is now approaching. I have to decide what classes I want to take, ultimately what I want to do after I graduate. The 2012 class schedule has been released and it is time that I make my spring semester schedule. Hopefully, I'm not the only one who freaks out at this time of the year but it really bothers me that I have to decide what I want to do 20 years from now.

I've changed my major about 5 times because I'm so indecisive. I can't figure it out all because I'm scared to make a mistake that I won't like that same career when I am older. It is the craziest idea to me but I know that taking a break from school is nothing but a mistake because I will not go back to school. I am a all at once person. All of this thinking stresses me out. Secretly, I decided to come on this trip because I wanted extra time in college. I wanted this time to figure out what I wanted to do and I think my plan is working so far. I could have graduated a year early but I decided not to. I have realized that yes, I need to stay in the science/medicine field. I've narrowed down my choices to a clinical child psychology or a OB/GYN. (I realize that they are very different paths.) The government is interesting slightly but I want to directly help people and not sit at a desk all day. Most importantly, I still want to have time to be that soccer mom driving my SUV in the suburbs of a large city. I think right now I am an a better state than I was last year when it comes to deciding what I want to do in my life but its still scary because time is moving. It makes me feel like I'm falling or better yet failing because I'm technically a senior with a high schooler's mind. I know I will figure this out soon but I'm not very patient and I don't want to make a mistake. Hopefully, God will speak to me through my dreams or something and give me a little confidence to achieve my goals without getting scared and changing my mind yet again.